So I realize that I have expectations about how my life is going to be. I plan on finishing college, serving in M28, getting married (haha .. maybe not in that order ..), being a homemaker, staying in Charlotte around my family and church, serving in the church, homeschooling ..... you know, the life. But this might not be God's plan for me. I could have all of the "qualifications" for having this kind of life but still not get it. If he has other ideas for my life, will I really be happy? Or will I be tempted to doubt his goodness? I can say I trust in God, but actually believing in his sovereignty when my expectations are not fulfilled is a different story. It's hard work and involves submitting to his will. I want to be satisfied and joyful in whatever his will is for me since it glorifies him  .... and it IS his will after all, and his will is good. He knows what is best for me. =) I know that if I trust in him he will make me happy in him. "Delight yourself in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart." (Psalm 37:4)

(By the way, this was inspired by listening to this song the other day ....)


Thy Way, Not Mine

Thy way, not mine, O Lord
However dark it be
Lead me by Thine own hand
Choose out the path for me

Smooth let it be or rough
It will still be the best
Winding or straight, it leads
Right onward to Thy rest

I dare not choose my lot
I would not, if I might
Choose Thou for me, my God
So I can walk aright

Take Thou my cup, and it
With joy or sorrow fill
As best to Thee may seem
Choose Thou my good and ill

Not mine, not mine the choice
In all things great or small
Be Thou my guide, my strength
My wisdom and my all, my wisdom and my all


Words by Horatius Bonar (1857), Music and additional words by Joel Sczebel
As recorded on Looked Upon
© 2008 Sovereign Grace Worship (ASCAP)

Wow Anna. Great post...this exact same thing has been on my mind a lot recently! I have recently been thinking about how I tend to just assume things are going to happen in my life. Not like I try not to seek God's will, but sometimes I just never even think of it[my plan] as something that won't happen. For example, I, like you, have always thought I would finish highschool, go to college, get married, homeschool and be a homemaker....or something like that ;) And I just always assumed that was God's will. But I have been thinking about 'what if God's will is for me to be single for my whole life?' or 'what if God's will is for me to not go to college?'. I have been starting to re-adjust my view to more of the mindset of always being prepared for and willing to do anything God has for me. I need to have faith that He will prepare me for what I need to be prepared for, that He will guide my steps and that He will make that[His will] my heart's desire, if it isn't already. :)

Verses 4-7 are really encouraging. It reminds me that God is in control and that if I put my trust in Him and commit to His will, everything will work out to His perfect plan. I like a few other verses that relate to this, but I can't think of them right now..

But anyhow, now I'm rambling and I'm probably not making any sense....but yes, I totally understand what your talking about. Thanks for posting those lyrics, they are encouraging :)